Sue's Weight Loss Journey

Woo hoo! Down 5.2 pounds today. I am grateful. Would love to string some weeks together, here. At least, let's focus on the rest of this day! Questions: What kind of life do I want? What kind of body do I want? What am I willing to do to get those? Tonight, it means eat what I brought, rather than what is served at the Lent supper, do some self-care stuff (not food) when I get home tonight after a long day, and remember Whose I am.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: "You're Everything" David Crowder

Good quote from Oprah:

"The mistake I've made in the past is not realizing how constant a struggle it really is not to turn to food for comfort."

There's no "I got that part down" part of this weight loss journey. Just a daily decision to take actions that lead to the life and body I want. Thankful for that realization today.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: awake

Found this quote in a meditation book this morning:

Wake up, Wake up and clothe yourself with strength. Put on your beautiful clothes. Rise from the dust, take off the slave bands from your neck...recognize that it is I, yes, I who speaks to you. -Isaiah 52:1-2,6 (The Living Bible).

Here's to taking off the slave bands from my neck!

Current Location: Office
Current Music: "Come Awake" by David Crowder

Well, I'm so content. 4.2 pounds lost this week! It has been so long since I had such a good solid week...behaviors AND weight loss. Thankful girl and ready to keep it up. It was great to have Carolyn and Kath at the meeting, too--and congrats to Kath who had a 5 pound loss this week!!!

Current Location: on the couch
Current Mood: content
Current Music: American Idol (TV)

Feeling good today...love waking up knowing I didn't put myself to sleep with eating the night before. Am hoping to lift weights today and it's been a long time since I've done that. Running around in my head (good thing): "If it isn't hunger, food won't fix it". Amen.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: calm

Went to WW today...two weeks in a row. That's a good thing. Stayed the same, weight-wise. After a stressful and food-filled trip to Orlando, I'm OK with it. It was great to have my buddy Kath there, too. I got some inspiration to move more this week than I did last week. It will be a challenge because it is cold cold cold out, but I'm looking forward to trying!

Current Location: Home
Current Mood: grateful
Current Music: "Without a Trace" on TNT

So, a few months ago I submitted a couple original recipes to Weight Watchers magazine. Never heard a thing and wasn't even sure they had received them. BUT on Friday I got a call from their food editor...and they are not only going to publish one of my recipes (my Turkey Pepperoni Reuben), but it will be in the "Stay On Track" column, with a photo, a short back story about me and they will photograph my sandwich. Fun! Fun! Fun!

The best part is the way God sends little things to encourage me when I'm in a vulnerable "start over" time. I receive the encouragement with gratitude!

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: busy

I'm just about ready to go to bed...it's been a good program day. I am thankful. I am fighting with myself not to eat tonight. I'm going to bed.

Current Location: on the couch
Current Mood: hungry
Current Music: ER (TV)

Well, it's been so long since I've written here. Had a weigh-in yesterday that wasn't good (hadn't weighed in since 12/6). With the holidays and Haiti Mission trip and all--I wasn't surprised about the gain, but still needed the wake-up call. It's been such a struggle for months now (maybe since August)and I just wish I knew why. The meeting was really great. One thing Terry (our leader) said was, "Old habits don't die, they just go into remission". That really seems true with me. I know that I at one time felt like I had this thing down and the scale was showing it almost every week. This morning I was thinking about all the things I did when I first started WW:
Measured and weighed my food
Wrote everything down every day
Exercised no matter what
Wore a pedometer
Went to meetings no matter what
Wrote in this blog regularly

I haven't been doing these things and I'm going to start with those behaviors. Just the behaviors. I think that might be more important than figuring out why I'm like this. I have so much shame about it. I have that feeling that people can tell I've gained a little weight back and are afraid to talk with me about it. For sure, they can see that I haven't really been losing for a while. I can't get into all that, though...just today. Behaviors for today.

Heard a pastor on the radio yesterday for one minute who said that when we get undisciplined about anything, it snowballs and we often wait until things are really out of control and beat ourselves up terribly. Better, he said, to do the hard work of discipline along the way. I agree.

Thankful I have some tools to work with. If you're reading this, I would appreciate your prayers!

Current Location: Office
Current Music: "The Word" by Sara Groves

Damn. Up 3 pounds. I was hoping for a small loss--and I know there are some reasons why it's this gain (period's coming tomorrow, was one day shy of a whole week, some emotional eating at night), but it still feels crappy. Good news is I'm telling the truth about it here, I went to my meeting today (3 weeks in a row), and my exercise was back up where it needs to be this week. I can feel a real positive difference in my body from that.

Still: 3 pounds. Damn.

Current Location: Office
Current Mood: crappy